So its pointless.

ha ha yeah
Right. i know it is. he is talking to 2 girls so for real whats the point. i know i should keep myself motivated but i mean lets be realistic. me? have a chance over two girls who actually do. yeah i didn't think so and if it would happen i don't know how i would feel about. i know I'm wasting my time on him but no one has come up that has caught my attention like that so I'm going to waste all my free time thinking about him. its weird when my heart skips a beat every time i see him and i get too shaky for it to be normal. i feel weak whenever i see him blah blahh!

Hah, you're kidding me right?

"Okay so you're the one who punched her, its your fault. Not ours, don't blame it on us. Stop bringing us down, you're supposed to cheer us up. Do what your supposed to do, don't give up on us so quickly. You're a pathetic excuse for a leader. I really looked up to you, now you're just sad."
To my captain, Olivia



Um. i talk about him in every single blog so you knew this would come & here it is (:
i know that im weird and i like to talk about all the pointless little details. (: so if you get mad at me for just blabbing you can stop reading now.


We shared a drink (: hah i know its nothing but ahh we're swamping spit in some form so at least its something
And we are going to be bus buddies (: his bestfriend got a girlfriend so he didnt really have a bus buddy so i kinda came to his rescue (: hahah i know oh my goodness they're just going to sit on the bus together.but we'll be beside each other on a small seat (: its dark whenever we are coming back ahah sorry and yes this is a big improvement (:

I'm a pathetic mess

Okay, so i haven't been on in a while,blah blah blah..
So why are guys so freaking confusing? Hmm why!?!?!
Dudee why do they send out mixed signals!
BLEHH! this was a pointless blogg but errrrr
he makes me so mad. you aren't supposed to act so nice to someone and then just not talk to them
uncool

I have the best mom in the world.

My mom truly does amaze me. So last night I was at Andreas house and I swear that girl never freaking sleeps! When I don't get enought sleep I get really sick, so yeah I'm sick. I've been coughing up my lungs all day and all last night. And Andrea made me watch The Haunting in Connetticut. If you know me I hate scary movies, but you probably don't know why. Well I don't know either but once after watching them I get really paranoid at start to see things. Since I couldn't sleep because of Andrea's yacking , coughing up a storm, and hallucinating terrifying stuff. So I call my mom, its 3 am. I never stay up that late...ever. I'm like my mom, a firm believer in sleep. This is why my mom is the greatest, she picks me up in the middle of the night and since I was afraid that she would get in a car wreck she stayed on the phone with me the whole entire time (: She was telling me about how there were people out in the streets. Then she would do her hilarious Madea impression. I know no one really cares about what i have to say about my mom. But I love my mom. She's my bestfriend

:P

Hah probably.
Okay, so yesterday was Parade Practice, so yeah i was scared to death to enter that band room, but i told myself "Hey, I'm Kelsey Rodriguez! i can do this." But anyways back to the point. i avoided him, it was easy, kinda. Either I'm extremly paranoid or all of his friends were looking at me weirdly. :/ Oh well, i guess i will have to get over it. But the rest of the week will most likely get my mind off it. So today is Wednesday, i have my last day of driving with Mr.Young and all his gay stories, but i have to drive with Joseph one of Dylans friends. JOY! But after driving I'm going over to Justines house (: Then on Thrusday we will do the Parade thing and Justine will sleep over at my daddys house. Andd after that on Friday im going over to Andrea's house for the first time this whole summer (: How excited. And just for the sake of this pointless blog. I'm not that afraid of starting High School, i mean yeah im still afraid i will get lost but that will hopefully not happen. Hahaha im blabbing like i always do when i get started. Hah okay
Byeee (:

i need angry music, not cool beans at all!

this is why i hate people. ugh! okay people always ask me why do i hate people here is one of the reasons i hate them. They are dishonest, you can't trust hardly any of them. You probably think I'm a hypocrite because yeah i've lied too. But AHH i just want to rip all my hair out. Frank Freaking Pazdera, had no clue I couldn't trust him. But i sure do now. Since everybody knows already I like Dylan Rubinic. And i told Frank who thinks i told him to tell all of his friends!! UGHH!! Then I talked to Matt who told me to tell Dylan, did that. Didn't work! And i'm so terrified to go to parade practice. Dylan will be there and Frank is friends with half of the band. So i dont know if someone will be immature and yell "YOU LIKE DYLAN" I'm not sure if i should talk to him or just ignore him. AHH! im so freaking confused, Oh well i'll figure something out i always do. but it was good to get all of this outt

Bye :P

I'm eating cake

Hahah i don't know what is with my title. I have alot of stuff going on right now. Attempting to keep my bestfriend friendship with Emily,because she has been the bestfriend of all my bestfriends and the only one really worth it anymore. Then there is Color Guard where I have to work my butt off just to stay on the team, because it will be worth it in the long run. Andd then another attempt to get a guy that i have only talked to once; about his jeep (: its amazingg. And on with my ever growing list of stuff School.Joy. School is insanely important to me. Why? I'm a nerd and I feel stupid without it.


So i'm in the mood to spilll my guts about the guy i like. You will never find out his name unless I tell you. So :P Hah well i have only talked to him once. I'm lame. I know. But woww (: hehehe I don't know if he likes me.i have caught him looking at me (: I have asked around, they said he is picky, but so am i! (: heheh im just blabbing on so if you want to stop reading, be my guest. Goodness I love Amelia, shes the one who was all annoying and told me to go talk to him. So thank you Amelia (: I noticed that he has a little bit of facial hair. Ew. Hahah wow i'm a blabber. If you have been reading this whole thing. HIGH FIVE. Yayy you (: Well i don't want to blab the whole night.
Byee (: