Here's Everything.

Issue number 1: Myself
dude. i don't know how to put how I'm feeling to words. i know about blogs that you really shouldn't hold back in them well I'm trying not to but i guess its force of habit. So for the few people who actually do read my blog this is hard for me. Ha. I'm pathetic.
If you know me you know I'm not very good at expressing my feelings. i always have my guard up. do you think i enjoy being this hateful, mad person all the time? No! i hate it. i hate being mad all the time. i hate that i blame myself for everything. if i had 3 wishes my first wish would to be some one completely different. if i could recreate myself i wouldn't have divorced parents. i wouldn't keep my guard up 24/7. i would actually trust more than 2 people. i wouldn't be mad at the world constantly. i would be a likable person to be around. i would never be jealous. i would be the best christian ever. i would actually keep a boyfriend more than two weeks.Ha. But reality check please? I'm none of those things. I'm a loner and I probably always will be. And even if I tried to change myself. People would say I was fake. I would also feel really uncomfortable I guess I will always be the loner who no one really actually does like.

Issue number 2: My family
Yes, I love my family well some members of it anyways. I know that you can't Hate your dad but my feelings towards him are very close to hating him. He has the maturity of a high school boy and it feels like he blames everything on me. As you may know my parents are divorced. I love it and I hate it. I love it because they aren't supposed to be together and you can easily tell it too. I hate it for many reasons: I hate switching houses every week, I hate how everything feels like its my fault. I hate how they constantly fight. ugh! Wow, I'm surprised that I'm not crying. I've learned from my family that no one really does care anymore. I've learned that you just have to suck it up and get over it. Thats probably why I am a stone.




My mom wants on the computer. I'll rant about my life later.

Bye. :P

Excitedd for Transformerrs this Saturday (:

Hahahah you can tell i'm a big nerd. The first time i saw the first Transformers was with Emily bfffff (: but she is in paradise so i'm inviting my second bestfriend Lindseyyy Lail (:
We are leaving for Mtn. Pleasant on saturday morning like around 11 (: Mtn.Pleasant is where my moms boyfriend lives and we get to meet Noah( his son )for the first time(: They have a zip line and a trampoline so we will have a blast ahaha (: Then after hanging up there we are going with this big group to go see Transformers 2 hahahahahha yayayayaya! then after for a cook out then sleepoverr (: So we will have alot of fun. If you haven't seen any of the Transformers you need to see them they are amazingg (: and other news about Lindsey & me we were supposed to be leaving for the beach this friday but stuff came up so we are still going but we are leaving on Emily's birthday :( oh well Emily& I will be celebrating her birthday a little earlier this year hopefully just me and her. As you may know i'm not so much of a people person. I have the skillls to be one but people annoy me. But thats besides the point...ummmmmm what else is going on. Ohh! I'm going to louisana july 5th through july 10th! sooo that willl be greattt (:
i'm hoping emily can come but thats the next day she gets back from st.martin soo i dont know about that but im going to go ask my dad about emily comingg

Byeeee (:

Sitting Here

So basically I'm just sitting here in Mrs. Farris's class, she has a cool sub. He has a really deep voice. Hah. Andrea is on myspace and this blog is pretty much pointless. Um... Today is my last Monday as an 8th grader (: This Wednesday Emily and I are having our 3rd annual camp out and its Andrea's 2nd one so yay(: Its the bees knees. I'm going to be attending drivers ed with Andrea on the 11th to the 18th so that will be fun and miserable. Okay well..
Byeee

I'm so sick

I'm so sick of all the stupid, pointless drama that goes on at our school. I'm sick of people. I'm sick of people hating you for no reason. I'm sick of school. I'm sick of getting up early. I'm sick of being judged. Blehhhhhhhhh I'm sick of stupid girls.

Excitement (:

So as you already know, hopefully, that today is tuesday (:
June 2, 2009 to be exact and since I'm a very big nerd
I'm really excited that The Sims 3 is coming out today!!!
YAYYYY

Byeee

Why are mondays so gross?

I honestly believe that Monday is the worst day of the week for many reasons.
But tomorrow will be good(: The Sims 3 is coming out haha I'm such a computer nerd (:
Um.. what else?
I didn't do much today, basically on auto pilot the whole day..
I have decidedd to give up on my crush for now. Because I try to make some improvement, but none has happened yet. So I'm not going to keep my hopes up.Well dads cussing at the dog and I need some sleep if I'm going to some what attentive tomorrow
Byeee! (: