So its pointless.

ha ha yeah
Right. i know it is. he is talking to 2 girls so for real whats the point. i know i should keep myself motivated but i mean lets be realistic. me? have a chance over two girls who actually do. yeah i didn't think so and if it would happen i don't know how i would feel about. i know I'm wasting my time on him but no one has come up that has caught my attention like that so I'm going to waste all my free time thinking about him. its weird when my heart skips a beat every time i see him and i get too shaky for it to be normal. i feel weak whenever i see him blah blahh!

Hah, you're kidding me right?

"Okay so you're the one who punched her, its your fault. Not ours, don't blame it on us. Stop bringing us down, you're supposed to cheer us up. Do what your supposed to do, don't give up on us so quickly. You're a pathetic excuse for a leader. I really looked up to you, now you're just sad."
To my captain, Olivia



Um. i talk about him in every single blog so you knew this would come & here it is (:
i know that im weird and i like to talk about all the pointless little details. (: so if you get mad at me for just blabbing you can stop reading now.


We shared a drink (: hah i know its nothing but ahh we're swamping spit in some form so at least its something
And we are going to be bus buddies (: his bestfriend got a girlfriend so he didnt really have a bus buddy so i kinda came to his rescue (: hahah i know oh my goodness they're just going to sit on the bus together.but we'll be beside each other on a small seat (: its dark whenever we are coming back ahah sorry and yes this is a big improvement (:

I'm a pathetic mess

Okay, so i haven't been on in a while,blah blah blah..
So why are guys so freaking confusing? Hmm why!?!?!
Dudee why do they send out mixed signals!
BLEHH! this was a pointless blogg but errrrr
he makes me so mad. you aren't supposed to act so nice to someone and then just not talk to them
uncool

I have the best mom in the world.

My mom truly does amaze me. So last night I was at Andreas house and I swear that girl never freaking sleeps! When I don't get enought sleep I get really sick, so yeah I'm sick. I've been coughing up my lungs all day and all last night. And Andrea made me watch The Haunting in Connetticut. If you know me I hate scary movies, but you probably don't know why. Well I don't know either but once after watching them I get really paranoid at start to see things. Since I couldn't sleep because of Andrea's yacking , coughing up a storm, and hallucinating terrifying stuff. So I call my mom, its 3 am. I never stay up that late...ever. I'm like my mom, a firm believer in sleep. This is why my mom is the greatest, she picks me up in the middle of the night and since I was afraid that she would get in a car wreck she stayed on the phone with me the whole entire time (: She was telling me about how there were people out in the streets. Then she would do her hilarious Madea impression. I know no one really cares about what i have to say about my mom. But I love my mom. She's my bestfriend

:P

Hah probably.
Okay, so yesterday was Parade Practice, so yeah i was scared to death to enter that band room, but i told myself "Hey, I'm Kelsey Rodriguez! i can do this." But anyways back to the point. i avoided him, it was easy, kinda. Either I'm extremly paranoid or all of his friends were looking at me weirdly. :/ Oh well, i guess i will have to get over it. But the rest of the week will most likely get my mind off it. So today is Wednesday, i have my last day of driving with Mr.Young and all his gay stories, but i have to drive with Joseph one of Dylans friends. JOY! But after driving I'm going over to Justines house (: Then on Thrusday we will do the Parade thing and Justine will sleep over at my daddys house. Andd after that on Friday im going over to Andrea's house for the first time this whole summer (: How excited. And just for the sake of this pointless blog. I'm not that afraid of starting High School, i mean yeah im still afraid i will get lost but that will hopefully not happen. Hahaha im blabbing like i always do when i get started. Hah okay
Byeee (:

i need angry music, not cool beans at all!

this is why i hate people. ugh! okay people always ask me why do i hate people here is one of the reasons i hate them. They are dishonest, you can't trust hardly any of them. You probably think I'm a hypocrite because yeah i've lied too. But AHH i just want to rip all my hair out. Frank Freaking Pazdera, had no clue I couldn't trust him. But i sure do now. Since everybody knows already I like Dylan Rubinic. And i told Frank who thinks i told him to tell all of his friends!! UGHH!! Then I talked to Matt who told me to tell Dylan, did that. Didn't work! And i'm so terrified to go to parade practice. Dylan will be there and Frank is friends with half of the band. So i dont know if someone will be immature and yell "YOU LIKE DYLAN" I'm not sure if i should talk to him or just ignore him. AHH! im so freaking confused, Oh well i'll figure something out i always do. but it was good to get all of this outt

Bye :P

I'm eating cake

Hahah i don't know what is with my title. I have alot of stuff going on right now. Attempting to keep my bestfriend friendship with Emily,because she has been the bestfriend of all my bestfriends and the only one really worth it anymore. Then there is Color Guard where I have to work my butt off just to stay on the team, because it will be worth it in the long run. Andd then another attempt to get a guy that i have only talked to once; about his jeep (: its amazingg. And on with my ever growing list of stuff School.Joy. School is insanely important to me. Why? I'm a nerd and I feel stupid without it.


So i'm in the mood to spilll my guts about the guy i like. You will never find out his name unless I tell you. So :P Hah well i have only talked to him once. I'm lame. I know. But woww (: hehehe I don't know if he likes me.i have caught him looking at me (: I have asked around, they said he is picky, but so am i! (: heheh im just blabbing on so if you want to stop reading, be my guest. Goodness I love Amelia, shes the one who was all annoying and told me to go talk to him. So thank you Amelia (: I noticed that he has a little bit of facial hair. Ew. Hahah wow i'm a blabber. If you have been reading this whole thing. HIGH FIVE. Yayy you (: Well i don't want to blab the whole night.
Byee (:

Bestfriendd?

Okay i don't really know how to start this blog so I'm going to just jump in. You know my best friend? Emily Nelson right? well it just doesn't feel like we are anymore. I mean shes all preppy and social. And I'm nerdy and anti-social. I don't know i can feel us drifting apart. I'm becoming closer with Rose Wells, and Emily Pazdera. And Emily Nelson obviously is becoming closer with Andrea Taylor .This was a pointless blog but it was good to get my feelings out
Peacee <3

Goodness.

Hello (: I know i haven't blogged in a while, but no one reads mine so not many people really give a flying fart in space about what i blog about.hah.wellll i have been at guard camp and band camp the past dos weeks. Guard camp was really amusing but difficult. But i don't really want to talk to about that in this blog. I want to talk about band camp (: Hehe so like the only time i blog is whenever i have a crush on someone or i just pissed off. Hehe well im not pissed off i have been extremly happy lately. Because of a boy? Yeah, kinda.Hah anddd...the sad thing is i have never talked to the guy i just look at him and giggle.wow im such a loser. hahahahah.. oh well. But once i get my mind set on something i usually strive to get it. so... you can kind of assume the rest. I suck at getting guys so wish me luck, i will make a fool of myself. but if i go down i will go down swinging. haha that kind of made sense. Ohh well. hehehehheh im so giggly :O
Byeee (:

Damned if I do, Damned if I don't

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while , but aye no one really reads this anyways ha ha. Okay well I've been living with my best friend for like 4 days but she needs her sleep and my mom missed me but I'm coming back on Friday I think. Okay well most people know who "All Time Low " is right? Yes. Well I don't know why I titled my blog like their main verse in their song but Goodness I get side tracked. Okay Okay Okay... Well BLAHHHH I don't know how to put it into words. I like him again.. Ughh! Again can you believe it? I'm not going to say who because one of my friends is dating him. But blehh I want him. I thought blogging would help me realize that I can't have him or want him. But me and him have been friends for a pretty long time. And he is one of those friends that you can't stay mad at even though you want to hate them. If you have one of those friends you know where I'm coming from. But I hate myself for liking him again. aksdnfafnfd!!! Dudde I'm not sure if told you this but he used to really like me and I really liked him too but he was a pussy and never made a fucking move and then my bestfriend liked him too and so I just stopped liking him for her sake but then he was all like I like you Kelsey and all this crap. Why are guys so fucking confusing? I mean really!? I have no point in this blog other than to rant about some stupid guy so I will stopByee :P

Here's Everything.

Issue number 1: Myself
dude. i don't know how to put how I'm feeling to words. i know about blogs that you really shouldn't hold back in them well I'm trying not to but i guess its force of habit. So for the few people who actually do read my blog this is hard for me. Ha. I'm pathetic.
If you know me you know I'm not very good at expressing my feelings. i always have my guard up. do you think i enjoy being this hateful, mad person all the time? No! i hate it. i hate being mad all the time. i hate that i blame myself for everything. if i had 3 wishes my first wish would to be some one completely different. if i could recreate myself i wouldn't have divorced parents. i wouldn't keep my guard up 24/7. i would actually trust more than 2 people. i wouldn't be mad at the world constantly. i would be a likable person to be around. i would never be jealous. i would be the best christian ever. i would actually keep a boyfriend more than two weeks.Ha. But reality check please? I'm none of those things. I'm a loner and I probably always will be. And even if I tried to change myself. People would say I was fake. I would also feel really uncomfortable I guess I will always be the loner who no one really actually does like.

Issue number 2: My family
Yes, I love my family well some members of it anyways. I know that you can't Hate your dad but my feelings towards him are very close to hating him. He has the maturity of a high school boy and it feels like he blames everything on me. As you may know my parents are divorced. I love it and I hate it. I love it because they aren't supposed to be together and you can easily tell it too. I hate it for many reasons: I hate switching houses every week, I hate how everything feels like its my fault. I hate how they constantly fight. ugh! Wow, I'm surprised that I'm not crying. I've learned from my family that no one really does care anymore. I've learned that you just have to suck it up and get over it. Thats probably why I am a stone.




My mom wants on the computer. I'll rant about my life later.

Bye. :P

Excitedd for Transformerrs this Saturday (:

Hahahah you can tell i'm a big nerd. The first time i saw the first Transformers was with Emily bfffff (: but she is in paradise so i'm inviting my second bestfriend Lindseyyy Lail (:
We are leaving for Mtn. Pleasant on saturday morning like around 11 (: Mtn.Pleasant is where my moms boyfriend lives and we get to meet Noah( his son )for the first time(: They have a zip line and a trampoline so we will have a blast ahaha (: Then after hanging up there we are going with this big group to go see Transformers 2 hahahahahha yayayayaya! then after for a cook out then sleepoverr (: So we will have alot of fun. If you haven't seen any of the Transformers you need to see them they are amazingg (: and other news about Lindsey & me we were supposed to be leaving for the beach this friday but stuff came up so we are still going but we are leaving on Emily's birthday :( oh well Emily& I will be celebrating her birthday a little earlier this year hopefully just me and her. As you may know i'm not so much of a people person. I have the skillls to be one but people annoy me. But thats besides the point...ummmmmm what else is going on. Ohh! I'm going to louisana july 5th through july 10th! sooo that willl be greattt (:
i'm hoping emily can come but thats the next day she gets back from st.martin soo i dont know about that but im going to go ask my dad about emily comingg

Byeeee (:

Sitting Here

So basically I'm just sitting here in Mrs. Farris's class, she has a cool sub. He has a really deep voice. Hah. Andrea is on myspace and this blog is pretty much pointless. Um... Today is my last Monday as an 8th grader (: This Wednesday Emily and I are having our 3rd annual camp out and its Andrea's 2nd one so yay(: Its the bees knees. I'm going to be attending drivers ed with Andrea on the 11th to the 18th so that will be fun and miserable. Okay well..
Byeee

I'm so sick

I'm so sick of all the stupid, pointless drama that goes on at our school. I'm sick of people. I'm sick of people hating you for no reason. I'm sick of school. I'm sick of getting up early. I'm sick of being judged. Blehhhhhhhhh I'm sick of stupid girls.

Excitement (:

So as you already know, hopefully, that today is tuesday (:
June 2, 2009 to be exact and since I'm a very big nerd
I'm really excited that The Sims 3 is coming out today!!!
YAYYYY

Byeee

Why are mondays so gross?

I honestly believe that Monday is the worst day of the week for many reasons.
But tomorrow will be good(: The Sims 3 is coming out haha I'm such a computer nerd (:
Um.. what else?
I didn't do much today, basically on auto pilot the whole day..
I have decidedd to give up on my crush for now. Because I try to make some improvement, but none has happened yet. So I'm not going to keep my hopes up.Well dads cussing at the dog and I need some sleep if I'm going to some what attentive tomorrow
Byeee! (:

ASKJ

Honestly, why can't I know a lot about relationships and all that jazz? You're probably like "Oh relationships are easy to figure out" Ha! Not for me, I am probably the most clueless girl about relationships you ever will meet wait scratch that I an the most clueless girl. And now you're probably wondering what in the hell is she rambling on about?
Well it all happened not this saturday but the last. I was in a car; he couldn't see me but I could see him. Just looking at him made my heart accerlerate. Pathetic isn't it?
Yes.
In my blog prior to this one I complained then too how I didn't get to see him and keep in mind I haven't seen him in a year. Prevous this week like er... around wednesday when I didn't know he wasn't coming. Even thinking about it made me sick to my stomach, and thing then that really scared me was that it wasn't reality. I was just thinking how it would go, and when I was thinking about it, all I could see were negatives.d;lfmad/mafdmn!!!!!!!!!
Gah, I'm so mad at myself because this stupid boy is preoccupying my mind!
And again the thing that gets me is its not reality...yet.
But i want it to be

Wow.

I seriously just lost all respect for her. If what me and Emily think is true ,then yep respects gone. She knew I had a little crush on him! But NO! Does she care about other peoples feelings?
I guess not. And the thing that really gets me is that she has a boyfriend! A hot boyfriend!
We think that she cheated on him with my crush :( But if some how we get proof, oh she'll be sorry. Because I honestly believe that he would want to know. But the only problem is...getting proof. So wish us good luck.
Okay, so Emily says I have to write about the positives in life.
Like yesterday night, Emily and I went to downtown Hickory. We ate at Grouchos Deli (: It was yummy. Then we walked around and basically decided that the majority of skateboarders are hot. And after that! We went to a little quait coffee shop (: Our coffees were gross after the first 3 sips. And the adventure goes on we watched a Christian rock band, they were delightful (: Finally we went to see "Race To Witch Mountain" which was surprisingly pretty good, but there was little toddlers everywhere. Hahaha that movie would have scared the ever living crap out of me if I was 5.
Bye (: BOOOBIES hahahhaha